Don't ever take things for granted ;

Let me stay.

26th April, Saturday.

woke up at 4pm today. meet up with Erinna&Xujun at 7plus at Hougang Mall. went LongJohn to have dinner. chatted&stuff. bus-ed to JooSeng. went over to Xujun's Mum's shop. they are having steamboat. &we ate again. -.- so full please. LOLS. after that, went up to Jun's Mum's house, watch Tv&home around 11plus.

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another song that I love.

Bleeding Love by LEONA LEWIS

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

Walk away, Loved. 12:05:00 AM `

Dont change.

Sometime, I really love the time when I'm alone.
I love reflecting on myself&trying to understand the things happening around me.
But then again, sometime being alone just sucks.
Especially for such a sensitive person like me.
I'm a very contradicting person, I know.

I seriously hope you wouldnt change.
I dont want to be avoided ~~again,~~ my dear.

24th April, Thursday.

shortest day in school. 10am-12pm. (: after school, headed Hougang Plaza along with Kenny Tan, Eugene, Alex&Yihan. lunched at Hougang Mall's LongJohn first then meet up with Janet&Dianne at Plaza. they went to Pool, so accompany them. after playing, around 4pm, walk around at Mall with Dianne, Kenny&Alex. home around 5plus6pm.

this is Dianne, arent she cute? hahahah.

In Mall's Arcade.

I'm sorry, I shouldnt ask for more.

25th April, Friday.

damn tired today, I dont know why. school from 9am till 4pm. 3hours of IT is boring shit. LOLS. 2hours of lunch break so we went to have lunch at a market nearby school with Christine, Guanlin, Chenning, Zheyu, Ames, Kenny, Theodore&Alex. back to school at 1plus for Econs lecture at 2pm. I fell asleep during lecture. I dont know why I'm so tired today. sigh... well, stayed in school after lecture along with Kenny, Theodore&YC(I've no idea how to spell his name. =X), as they are having Cca at 6pm. at the same time, they accompanied to collect my laptop as the delivery man delivered it to school. how great. LOLS. Steven came to pick me up around 6plus, then went his house as he helped me with the start up of the laptop. I admit I'm a noob when it comes to IT. LOLS.

I look retarded, I know. LOLS.

while waiting for the others to get their bubble tea.

Theodore, the model of the year. -.-
I took this pic because he took some snapshot of me which looks like shit. XD
&I promised him that I will post it on my blog, so yeah. LOLS.

Walk away, Loved. 1:08:00 AM `

I learn every time I bleed.

I dont deserve to be treated this way, isnt it? Havent I been patient enough? Havent I been sincere enough?
Ohwell, I feel so shit.

I need some assurance.

21st April, Monday.

school from 8am till 4pm or so. stayed in school with Janet&Christine till 6plus. Hweehan came to look for me. left the school with Hweehan. went Amk Hub, eat&slack at Mac. Steven came for to look for us because of his Laptop. home around 9plus.

22nd April, Tuesday.

school from 11am till 6pm. home after that as I'm carrying a lot of stuff on hand. Steven came to pick me around 8plus, went for dinner. went to his house to try out the internet connection. but it doesnt seems to be working. so home after that.

23rd April, Wednesday.

Top: Me, Janet.
Bottom: Guanlin, Christine.

school from 9am till 2pm. early yeah. hahaha. headed City Hall along with Guanlin, Kenny Tan&Theodore. meet up with Huimin there. went Foodcourt to grab a bite, chatted there. after awhile, they decided to play Pool, so I went shopping with Huimin. meet up with them&home around 6plus.

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currently, I'm in love with this song. :D

Tattoo by Jordin Sparks.

oh oh oh

No matter what you say about love
I keep coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later I get what I’m asking for

No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
The truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger I gotta let my spirit be free
To admit that I’m wrong and then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind

I can’t waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I’ve done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don’t look back got a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I’ll always have you (I'll always have you)

Sick of playing all of these games
It’s not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror didn’t deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could stop
Admit that I’m wrong and then change my mind
Sorry but I’ve gotta be strong and leave you behind

I can’t waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I’ve done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don’t look back got a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I’ll always have you (I'll always have you)

If I live every moment
Won’t change any moment
There's still a part of me in you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything I do, oh

I can’t waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothings broken (yeah)
No need to worry about everything I’ve done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don’t look back got a new direction (don't look back)
I loved you once, needed protection (no, no)
You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo

I can’t waste time so give it a moment (i can't waste time)
I realized nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I’ve done (no need to worry)
Live every second like it was my last one
Don’t look back at got a new direction (don't you ever look back)
I loved you once and I needed protection
You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I’ll always have you

Walk away, Loved. 9:16:00 PM `

Convince me with your soul.

17th April, Thursday.

school as usual. ended at 12pm, super early. LOLS. headed down to Shenton way together with Christine&Zheyu. they accompanied me to go find my Sister as we need to go to the Bank to settle some loan stuff. after that, parted with Sister, went Bugis with Christine&Zheyu. had Pasta for lunch. after that, walked to Simlim as we thought of getting a mouse. but in the end, only Zheyu bought. hahaha. then walked to Raffles City shopping centre. bought a pair of slippers from Billabong. then went City Link, Zheyu bought stuff&home after that. went for dinner with Steven after that. then went up to my Sister's house for awhile&home around 10plus11pm.

18th April, Friday.

Happy Birthday Marcus Goh.

school till 4pm. slacked awhile in school&bus-ed home after that. slacked awhile at home. Steven came to fetch me around 7plus. went Compass for dinner. bought birthday cake for Hweehan, meet up with Xujun&Nancy there. part-ed with Steven after that. meet up with Karmen then bus-ed to Hweehan's house there. Erinna meet us there at around 11plus. wanted to give Hweehan a surprise but it isnt very successful. hahaha. well, slacked at Mac till 1plus&home after that.

she's a lady okae. LOLS.

in the mist of preparing.

Dearest Dajie, Lovely 19th B'day.

waiting for time to pass.

the leftover paperplates. LOLS.

at the end of the day, she's a happy girl. hahahah.

19th April, Saturday.

Happy 19th Birthday Foo Hwee Han! (:
admit that you're old. XD

slept my Saturday away. wake up only at around 5pm. out for dinner with Steven around 8pm&home around 12plus.

20th April, Sunday.

woke up at around 1130am. meet up with Hweehan at around 1250pm or so. headed Somerset to meet Huimin. hahahah. well, when we three meet up, it's all about craziness&laughters. hahahah. lunched at Cine's Longjohn, updates on our new life&stuff. walked around PS, we ended up in the Arcade. LOLS. we played the sweets machine, no idea what's the correct name. hahah. after that, watched Awake at 510pm at PS. the movie is nice but then again there are disgusting scenes. ewww. LOLS. after movie, walked around. slacked&had dinner at Cine's Kfc. headed home around 9plus. looking forward to our next meetup. they are so loved. (:

what we won in the Arcade. LOLS.

arent she adorable? XD

School again tomorrow.
I'm looking forward to it but at the same time, I dread it.

Walk away, Loved. 10:42:00 PM `

I find it hard to breathe.

13th April, Sunday.

out with Steven. bought some daily necessities. caught Definitely, Maybe. quite a nice show with some funny parts. hahaha.

14th April, Monday.

first day of school in Nyp. lectures&tutorial from 8am all the way till 4pm. after school, meet up with Erinna at Amk hub. shopped around. around 6pm, bus-ed Compass point, meet up with Nancy. had dinner at Foodcourt. Xujun came to look for us after she ended work. then slack, chat&stuff. we shared&bought something for Steven Tay, called him to come&collect it. well, home after that.

15th April, Tuesday.

school from 11am till 5plus. Christine accompanied me to wait for Steven to reach as it's raining very heavily. thanks alot. (: after he reach, we went to tabao dinner for myself&my Sister as I'm going over to my Sister's house. he tabao for himself&sent me to my Sister's house&he went home. up to my Sister's house. asked her some stuff, she help me repaint my toe nails. hahaha. home around 10pm or so.

16th April, Wednesday.

kinda like my classmates. hahaha. at least I feel some belonging uh. XD fyi, I'm a very anti-social person. LOLS. school till 4plus. meet up with Mr Ong as he's having late lunch in Nyp. had a chat with him. he's currently doing very well with his own company being a boss. hahaha. around 6plus, left Nyp&went J8's Foodcourt for dinner. home around 7plus8pm. so early can. hahahah.

still remember your promise?

Well, I guess it's natural for guys to go for new ones than sticking with the old ones yeah?
But girls are always naive, isnt it?
Perhaps it's just me being alittle emotional here.
Well, let me be, let me whine.

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2 old yet so meaningful songs.

我的最爱 by Angela Zhang.

像一场梦却醒不过来
另一个我在看着我
她问我值不值得
为你付出所有
只要一想起你的温柔
就会让我看不清楚
你想做的你
没有谁强迫我坚强
我却都忍的住
清醒的孤独
你永远是我的最爱
不管爱你有多难
我的心只想属于你
无法预知的未来
你试着抱起我
却看见远方寂寞
爱将会克服一切
在我心中
我不会停止爱着你
握着你温热的手
就算偶尔透露
你的不安和放纵
我总是相信你

另一个你在看着我
他问我愿不愿意
给你更多自由
只要一想起你的忧愁
我想做的我
梦里的孤独

记得 by A-mei

谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后
我们都忘了
这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的
有一天有一天都会停的
让时间说真话
虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后
我们都不知道会不会有遗憾
谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后
我们都累了
却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑
怎么说怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么
也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人
等对方先说找分开的理由
谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中
看见了不同的天空
走的太远
终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我
要有两个相反的梦
谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后

Walk away, Loved. 9:42:00 PM `

I need some time on my own.

9th April, Wednesday.

no idea what time I woke up. only remembered that I was out with Engkeat at Marina Square, ate Pizza Hut, watched Street's King. the movie is quite nice but full of violence. after movie, bus-ed home. reach home around 9plus10pm.

10th April, Thursday.

up at 6am, Uncle Steven fetched me to Nyp for my first day of orientation around 7plus. meet up with Cassandra in Nyp&in to the Auditorium. whole day mostly talks, briefing&ice-breaking games. everything ended around 6plus, meet up with Kendrick, Junjie&Erinna. bus-ed to Compass, had Mac&meet up with Xujun after her work. pei-ed her to buy some stuff then went Yoshi as she havent had her dinner. separate from the guys&the 3of us bus-ed to Xujun's house. she packed her stuff, Steven came to fetch us, home-d.

11th April, Friday.

dont remind me that I look like a typical secondary schoolgirl. LOLS.

slept at 2plus the day before&woke up at 7plus. barely 5hours. Uncle Steven fetched me to school today also. games&sports for the whole day. while playing Captain ball, the ball came flying towards me&hit my nose, how best. LOLS. played 3different kinds of water games&the result is being soak with water from head to toe! damn it. wash up&stuff. had mass dance&stuff in the later part of the day&everything ended around 8plus. Steven came to pick me up&had dinner at Chompchomp&home. thanks alot Uncle Tay, really really appreciate it.

AF0801. (:
12th April, Saturday.

Band Marching Assessment 2008.

woke up at 1030am when I'm supposed to wake up at 10am. was late when meeting Jason, Jasline&John at PS. Meieng was later than me. lunch-ed at Foodcourt. meet up with Hidaya, Wendy, Elaine, Suthanee&Yanhwee after eating, bus-ed to Indoor Stadium. Yuying Concert Band did a GREAT JOB! they achieved Certificate of DISTINCTION! I'm so proud of each&every one of them. everything ended around 8plus, back to Yuying. went for dinner with Jasline, Meieng, Jason&some band members. had Mac&home around 11plus.

my whole body is aching like some shit now. argh.

Walk away, Loved. 1:02:00 AM `

Dont take me for granted.

well, I know it's like super early now. LOLS. I cant sleep though I feel very tired. damn it.

7th April, Monday.

woke up at 12plus, prepared&stuff. meet up with Erinna&Johnamin at PS around 2pm. walked to Cine to get movie tickets, watched Untraceable again. -.- LOLS. after that, lunched at LongJohn then went Fareast for a walk before our movie starts. bought a white pants from Zimple. back to Cine, movie ended around 7plus. went Bugis&walked aimlessly. LOLS. went Kfc for dinner around 8plus9pm? walked around&home after that.

8th April, Tuesday.

I dont wanna runaway.

woke up at 1plus, slacked. meet up with Huimin around 430pm at Bugis. lunched at Foodcourt. bought a bag for school&a top from G2000. around 6pm, mrt-ed down to Eunos. went office to collect our pay. after that, left office with Huimin&Leela. planted ourselves in a cafe&starting chatting, crapping&laughters. LOLS. I always love catching up with Huimin, she always brought laughters to me. love you babe~

Steven came to pick me up at around 8plus9pm after his meeting. supposed to meet up with Xujun&Steven. in the end, Xujun went MIA. had dinner with Steven&waited for Xujun's call till no avail. home around 1plus.

Orientation on the 10th&11th.
School's starting on the 14th.
How fast. argh.

I'm disappointed.
But again, what can I do?

Walk away, Loved. 3:36:00 AM `

Forgive&forget.

The best thing in life is to forgive, forget&live life to the fullest. isnt it? (:

meet up with Erinna around 9plus10am today at her house there&bus-ed to Xujun's place due to some changes here&there. we went into Xujun's house without any permission. LOLS. wake her up, chatted&stuff. rush her to prepare, headed Compass after that. had lunch at Soup Restaurant. walked, slacked, fooled around. LOLS. Steven came to meet us for awhile then went off to meet his friends. he gave us his house keys&the 3of us gone up to his house. helped Erinna to rub her injury. Erinna left around 6plus as she's going for dinner with her family. stayed at Steven's house till around 9plus with Xujun until Steven got home. sent Xujun home, went for dinner&home around 11pm.

I love them, as much as I love myself.

Walk away, Loved. 11:35:00 PM `

I dont wish to lose it again.

Steven Tay's Stitch.

5th April, Saturday.

got woken up by a call at around 12pm. after that, slacked. meet up with Steven around 2plus3pm as he wanted to get some formal tops, accompanied him to Beach Road to get it. before that, had late lunch at Katong area? then went Bugis to pay for my Ezlink card thingy&went Amk Hub after that. caught Untraceable at 920pm. the movie is nice but got some disgusting scenes. had Steamboat before the movie&I'm still feeling damn bloody full now. LOLS. after movie around 11plus, went to fetch Xujun&accompanied her for supper. chatted&stuff. called up Erinna because of some stuff(refer to her blog for details). &home around 1plus.

meeting up with Erin&Xujun at 10am later. :D

Uncle Tay. LOLS.

Walk away, Loved. 2:28:00 AM `

Keep the cool.

home the whole day today. boring, I need some money. LOLS.

2nd April, Wednesday.

slept till 3plus, home the whole day. watched finish Gong Zhu Xiao Mei's Dvd. hahahah. overall, the show is nice, funny&sad at some parts.

3rd April, Thursday.

slept till 3plus, slacked. out for dinner with Steven, had Pizza Hut at Town area. after that went Esplanade for a walk as we were both bloated. after that went for a drink&home around 12plus1am.

dont remind me that I look pale.

Walk away, Loved. 8:19:00 PM `

It's just about the distance.

Once a friend, always a friend.
It's just a matter of how close we are.

1st April, Tuesday.

April Fool Day.

okae, I'm being fooled by Daniel Lee's message today&I sent to a number of people. few of them actually called to clarify what's happening. LOLS. cool man. XD

woke up at 11plus12pm today. meet up with Hweehan around 1pm&headed Town to meet up with Huimin. I did like same thing as yesterday. LOLS. movie then Kbox-ing. watched Shutter, it was scary but it's rather similar to the first one. so yeah. hahahah. some parts are kinda expected. Kbox till around 10plus11pm, Xujun called&said that she's hungry. so decided to meet up with Steven&her to accompany her for supper. Steven actually fooled us by telling us that he's at home when he's already at Town. idiot. LOLS. so, went Jalan Kayu with the 2 of them&home around 12plus1am.

Huimin, Meizhen, Hweehan.

I love you babes.

Walk away, Loved. 1:23:00 AM `

Standing strong.

31st March, Monday.

was out for almost the whole day. hahahah. woke up at 11plus, meet up with Joshua, Cheyenne&Malcolm at Kembangan Mrt station at around 1plus, as usual Joshua Poh was late. LOLS. we decided to head for Town after that. went Cathay to buy movie tickets for Step-up2 then headed for lunch. after eating, went to Bens&Jerry as Cheyenne wants to eat ice-cream. cam-whore alittle there. afterwhich, we went for our movie at 3plus. after movie, it's around 5pm, went over to Cine to take neo-prints. then we decided to go for some singing session. so in to the Kbox for the Buffet cum singing session till around 11plus, Steven gave us a ride home. thanks a million.